The Precipice

Bum Week Day 1: The Beginning

2006-04-17T14:19:00.000-04:00

After a not so exciting week and a half, I finally have something worth posting about. Today was the first day of Bum Week. Yes, as of 9:30 AM this morning, I am officially homeless and have started my journey as a novice bum. Though I don't really like to think of myself as a bum since I'm not smelly, drunk, and crippled. Perhaps a Wanderer of Campus. Whatever.
Honestly though, I am really hoping that this week, the Vault can get closer as a group and more importantly get closer to God. This is an attempt (some more than others) to strip away the distractions and comforts that we have come to rely on and soley depend of the Creater of the universe. Well, when you look at it that way, I guess its not so bad. But the truth is, not knowing where your next meal is coming from is pretty intimitating to think of now. I haven't eaten since breakfast and some food sounds pretty good right now!
Sleeping is the other issue. As of right now, it looks like Lockwood is a good bet. Actually, the study rooms are pretty amazing. The big windows overlooking campus give it an executive look. Hiding in Lockwood and dodging security should give us plenty to do tonight.

Well, thats about it now. We will see.

Time

2006-04-04T15:10:00.000-04:00

Time flies when you're having fun; hot dogs fly when you squeeze the bun. I think to me, it can just be: time flies.
It's strange how time seems to speed up as I get older. I remember when I was in elementary school, summer vacations seemed never ending. There was always too much time and too little to do. Back in those summers, I remember laying upside down on the slide, just watching the clouds. I remember fighting with my parents about studying because college seemed so far off. Those three months of summer vacation seemed like years and by the end, we all looked forward to going back to school. At least that wasn't as boring. I measured time in months and years. Grandfather Time was still using his walker.
Now I find my self, in a sort of sadistic way, hoping that Grandfather Time would break his legs or something of that sort. Instead of measuring time by months and years, I measure my days by the hour. I measure out the exact hours I have left before my next exam, before when that next homework assignment is due, before when my next lab is. Then, when all my work is done, rest and sleep take their meager share of precious hours and attempt to recuperate me for the next day. That is my life. Sometimes, I just can’t stand it. Last week was probably the cracking point for me. For the first time, I blew off a homework assignment. Granted, it as only worth three points, but to me, it was me lashing out at the work that had been consuming me. I felt good and guilty at the same time. In my mind, that little acted was a reminder to me and my work (as if it had a persona) that I was still the king while at the same time trampling all over the “good” work ethic that I had been conditioned to.
I hope that summer comes very soon. Everything will be fine and life will be simple again. Of course, I’m lying to myself. This summer will be far from simple. Between work and studying, I’m also throwing in EMT classes (If I can get in) and the EMT squad. Not to mention my dad wants to do some more research this summer with me. Summer, ha, don’t make me laugh. These nostalgic ideas are but a seductive facade on another tyrant. I know what my summer will be like. I just don’t want to think about it. And so, I will say to my self, “I hope summer comes soon. I hope summer comes soon…”

Freedom?!

2006-03-29T12:04:00.000-05:00

Freeedddooommmmm! That's what I wanted to yell when I stepped out of the test room. Well, actually, I ran straight to the bathroom to blow my nose. I wasn't allowed to leave to get something to blow my nose on. So... I endured the sniffly for an hour. I should have brought something I guess. Well, it doesn't actually feel quite that liberating. I guess I would describe myself to be in a dazed sleep. A meager hour of sleep last night exacerbated by the fact that I only had four the night before is actually starting to hurt. I can't imagine any amount of coffee could bring me out of this stupor. This is excellent, since I will be heading next door to my honor seminar’s discussion recitation. Hopefully, I won’t snore too loud…
And the rest of the day? Sadly, the day is far from over for me. After this little classroom chat, I have to head over to Furnas Hall and check out a new program my professor just bought for research. Computational muscle modeling, doesn’t that sound like a party?

The Final Day

2006-03-29T05:31:00.000-05:00

Well, when dawn decides to come around to it, it'll b the last day of the tests for me this week. I can't wait. It has been a long, long night. I just slept for an hour inorder to fake my body out and counteract a little fatigue. Since 3:00 PM yesterday, I have basically sat here, listening to Dr. Hennessey talk about Cell Biology. I have to share something with you-- I don't find that man very amusing anymore. His jokes are stupid. Stupid. after about 10 hours of his voice, I don't know if i can ever go back to lecture. I was surpised i didn't hear him in my dreams when I got my solitary hour of sleep. Perhaps it is my fault for trying to learn materials from 15 lectures all in one siting. I have just been so busy. A bad case of forced procrastination? Maybe. But whatever it is, I am still amazed at how much the human brain and handle, espcially under high stress. Especially amazing since I am studying stuff about the inner workings of neurons... We shall see just how much the brain can handle. Here it comes, the final day. I can see dawn peeking out at me. I wanna round house kick it in the face. Just like Chuck Norris.

Wish me luck.

It's gonna be one of those weeks...

2006-03-27T14:00:00.000-05:00

Well, here comes one of my suckier weeks. Along with having two exams and a ton of homework due, I'm also sick and a bit burned out. I felt a little better this weekend, but now, my coughing has gotten considerably worse. To make it worse, the next cell bio exam will determine whether or not I get an A in the entire course. Blah. I hate this week. Well that's it for complaining I guess.

On a better note, I'm hoping I get better so I can do at least some of Bum Week with the guys. And this Saturday should be pretty sweet, House party at Ryan's! Yeah, good times. Of course we have to keep it at CCC standards... I"m looking forward to that.

Peace out ^_^

NOLA Reunion

2006-03-26T14:47:00.000-05:00

Well, last night's party was pretty sweet. Even though no one really watched the movie, it was still a great time. It's so nice that Cru is doing stuff together again. I can definitely see community being built up again. Praise God! Well, here are some pics. The rest can be found at my Zoto site.

I hate being sick...:(

2006-03-25T14:29:00.000-05:00

Well, yesterday was offically one of the worst days ever. Chemistry Exam + Sick = Not fun.

It's funny how when my nose is stuffed up, I can't taste anything. When I eat, I don't feel satisfied. It's like my feeling of hunger never goes away. Just my stomach feels filled up. Everything tastes the same...blah.

I feel sick.
I don't even know what i'm writing anymore.

huh? Crap....the room is spinning again...

People at Cru again...

2006-03-24T00:11:00.000-05:00

Tonight, the Cru meeting was great. There were actually people there.! Yeah, it's kind of a depressing thing to say, but it is true. Our numbers have been dwindling for some time now. Sometimes, it's just so hard for me when no one is in the crowd and yet, Ryan and I still have to act excited. Honestly, I sometimes don't even want to be up there. It depresses me. But yeah, it was so nice to have a crowd and excitment. I've missed that a lot about Cru. I hope people keep coming and our community keeps growing. But I guess either way, our God is faithful. We will keep on trucking... (<-thats kinda hick). I'm gonna go study Chemistry now. I hate Chemistry. I really hate Chemistry.

Taste like ya mama's.
Yeah, that's right. Ya mama's.

Sick...but ok

2006-03-23T16:39:00.000-05:00

Well, once again, i'm sitting here trying to keep up a blog. This probably is the 6th or 7th time that i've had to restart. Something about commitment...

But anyway, so yeah, NOLA was Great! (NOLA = New Orleans Louisiana, not some girl...) You sick person you. All of us had a lot of fun, and I won't even try and list all the things I learned, because I'm lazy. Well, these next few weeks are going to be pretty crazy. Exams, exams, and more exams. Yes, gotta love the end of the semester crunch. Well, I'm still hanging in there. Pray for me though. I'll try and post some stuff when i get a chance. No promises though...